The first time I wrote about the grief in hitting milestones, Cora slept 8 hours straight. I was so sad that she was growing up and I wouldn't get to see her as often in the middle of the night.
This week we signed Cora up for preschool. I have been so torn about this. I wanted to wait until Cora was 4 for preschool. And the tuition fee will be another added expense when we're looking into buying a house. AND since her friends are older, they'll be in the 4 year old program (MWF) and she'll be in the 3 year old program (TTH) so she won't see them as often. And finally, once she starts school she'll never stop. And that's too much for me.
But her friends are all going and she won't have the same level of peer interaction. Plus, she and I have been clashing a lot. 3 has been HARD. So if she has a new authority figure in her life it may help take some of the pressure off me. PLUS, whenever we have a third kid (not in the works yet) it will be nice for her to have a familiar routine. And finally, James will LOVE the one on one time with me 6 hours a week. He can do classes and story time at the library with me.
But I am SO sad about "losing" Cora. I worry about how she'll make new friends. Her speech is still behind her peers' levels. I hope they don't think she's a baby or weird. She is the sweetest little girl. I don't want her to get bullied!
Cora Faye, I love you so. You're the sweetest, even when you're driving me bonkers.
