The grief of growing up.

The first time I wrote about the grief in hitting milestones, Cora slept 8 hours straight. I was so sad that she was growing up and I wouldn't get to see her as often in the middle of the night.

This week we signed Cora up for preschool. I have been so torn about this. I wanted to wait until Cora was 4 for preschool. And the tuition fee will be another added expense when we're looking into buying a house. AND since her friends are older, they'll be in the 4 year old program (MWF) and she'll be in the 3 year old program (TTH) so she won't see them as often. And finally, once she starts school she'll never stop. And that's too much for me.

But her friends are all going and she won't have the same level of peer interaction. Plus, she and I have been clashing a lot. 3 has been HARD. So if she has a new authority figure in her life it may help take some of the pressure off me. PLUS, whenever we have a third kid (not in the works yet) it will be nice for her to have a familiar routine. And finally, James will LOVE the one on one time with me 6 hours a week. He can do classes and story time at the library with me. 

But I am SO sad about "losing" Cora. I worry about how she'll make new friends. Her speech is still behind her peers' levels. I hope they don't think she's a baby or weird. She is the sweetest little girl. I don't want her to get bullied! 

Cora Faye, I love you so. You're the sweetest, even when you're driving me bonkers.

Bad Bass Half Marathon.

I'm training for the St. George marathon, and the weekend of my training to run a half marathon there was a half in Castro Valley (about 45 minutes from the Giullian's house). So I signed up for it! Sight unseen.

The good news is, I got a tough training run in for my marathon.

The bad news is nothing else went right. It was a HILLY course. Mile 1 was a nice paved trail. I was so glad they had so many photographers there, because we got some happy pictures.

But from then on, it was basically uphill. The hill was so steep from miles 2-4 that I literally couldn't run it for more than 5 feet at a time. Once we got to the top the volunteer said "It's all downhill from here!" FALSE. From then on it was rolling hills. It was basically a 13 mile hike. I didn't see another runner for the last half of the race, which is mentally draining. Then my headphones died 10 miles in, and my phone was just about dead so I couldn't listen to music for the last little bit.

 So this was a mental victory for me! It was the slowest race time that I've ever had, but it was the most difficult terrain I've run on by far. About half a mile from the finish line, I saw a pink shirt throwing rocks into the water. Seeing Cora helped me find some energy in my legs. And I made it! Look at my cute cheering squad. I also had Dallin and Krystel and Steve and Karen. So much love!

Cora Quarterly Report- 3 years 3 months

The biggest event of this quarter was that Cora is FINALLY potty trained! I have no idea what happened, but it suddenly clicked when we were in Ecuador. Thank goodness, because I was about to lose it.
Cora is a full blown Disney obsessed girl now!

 She is (generally) a very happy child, and loves to go along for the ride. I can only hope all our children are this easy going with traveling!

She finally has long enough hair for pontytails, which I LOVE.

 She tries to be so big, but still needs someone to snuggle with at night sometimes. I'm trying to tell myself that it will not last.

She has a cute group of friends.

 She's a great big sister, who lets James pull her hair (I DO try to stop it!)

 She finished her Joy school program with flying marks!

 We're trying to expose her to some fun Central California activities, like picking blueberries.

We sure love this Cora!

12 Months of James Murphy.

ONE. YEAR.

James is a whole year old. We survived having two kids for a year!

James is learning to do some cute things. For example:

On the way to Ecuador, James showed me he could play peek a boo for the first time. Very good timing, since it was a rough flight and that was the CUTEST!

When you say "Awwww", James lays down on the nearest pillow or soft surface. So cute!

James is a baba FIEND. If he sees a bottle he screams for it. Thankfully I have one on hand most days!

 He is the sweetest happiest baby.

 He is confident enough in his masculinity to wear Cora's old swim diaper.

 He has learned to love popsicles. What a cutie!

 James loves it when Cora is gone at a playdate or something, because he can just go through her room without her arguing with him.

 He's learning to feed the giraffe.

 James LOVES men right now. LOVES. Grandpas, uncles, friends, etc.

 He is standing and cruising everywhere! Soooo busy.

James, you'll blow us all away someday.

Leiningers come to visit!

We had so much fun with the Leiningers when they came to visit!

Here are a few pictures.
First thing we did was go to the zoo.

 Don't these monkeys remind you of James? SAME color!

 Grammy's face though.

 James got to hang out in the shade when everyone else was at the splash pad.

 We also went to McKellar farms, and learned to pick oranges.

Wrong oranges, James!

One of the children (who will remain unnamed) would not sit in the pictures.

I couldn't figure out what was making James laugh so hard. He LOVED being buried in the toys by the big kids.

Cutie cousins!

Our favorite adventure was camping in Kings Canyon. We had never camped with the kids before, so it was nice to do with someone who understood how traveling with kids is.

Cora wanted to climb tunnel rock, so I swallowed my fear of heights and went with her. ONLY if she held my hand the entire time.

James was OBSESSED with Tommy. He fought Lucy every chance he got to have Tommy hold him.

Not tired at all.

We hiked Morro Rock, which we had not done since the day before James was born! Even with the added weight of carrying James in the front pack carrier (which is about how much weight I had lost from the pregnancy), it was much easier to do without diabetes and high blood pressure.

Silly cousins at the General Sherman!

All Cora wanted to do was follow Dane and Graham around.

When we pulled up to our cabin, there was a BEAR in the woods about 100 feet away. Very comforting when you have 5 little sausages named Dane, Graham, Lucy, Cora, and James with you.

Naughty boy keeping us busy at dinner. Eating at the lodge was overpriced, took too long, and didn't even get the orders right. Not what we would recommend.

Alyse and I got to go to an astronomy class put on by the lodge. I had never seen so many stars, and I loved seeing the different constellations! But we were exhausted and freezing.

But camping was successful! The kids slept fine. James was just mad in the morning since it was cold and he didn't want more cold milk.

Angel boy.

Lucy bonded with Brandon.

Lucy was so funny to watch. She's about the same size as James, but she was just walking and running around while he crawled after her.

 Kings Canyon is stunning. We had never been past Hume Lake in the past, and I mean. Wow.

Like this random waterfall we found to stop by for lunch. Things like that are everywhere!

 The good dads at Zumwalt Meadows carrying their kids.

 We have a poster of this exact location on our wall. It was amazing to see in person.

 Someone who will remain unnamed did not want to be in this picture (again).

 The non family highlight of the trip was finding out that my final assignment was accepted at WGU, which meant I graduated with my master's degree!

 Lucy, you're so cute.

 Those cute little cousins at Valhalla.

 Goodbye hugs.

I wish they lived closer, and we could see each other more than once a year! Thanks for visiting Leiningers!